I was reminded about that by another friend who never fails to be there. He emailed me back when I said that it was a crappy year last year. One thing, one very good thing, that came out from all this turmoil is the revelations that my friends are gems to me and more importantly God was there.
One thing happened which really gave me peace was the other day when I was having my facial. My facial started off really badly, the attendant was extremely rough, almost inexperienced. It really irritated me. To top it off, the next door gym was blasting loud music. My much anticipated relaxing session looked as though as it was going to be ruined. It was until she placed a mask over my face, switched off the lights and left the room before even the music next door subsided. Timing was impeccable.
I knew I couldn't sleep because it was the start of the day and I was awake, so I started praying for Ken. For some reason, I just kept praying for him. I asked God to protect him and grant him someone whom he can love whole-heartedly and who loves him back.
Then I also asked God why things have to happen this way - that everything was of such bad timing. And I could so relate to this french flick "Love me if you dare", that the couple did and went out of their way to hurt each other. Ultimately at the end of the day, they knew that they loved each other so much (erm...the rest of the story was a little warped but that's beside the point). I kept questioning what and why. I kept asking about the future of myself and even Ken.
I actually sensed God telling me "when you are ready". I knew it was from Him because I've had this extremely rare experience with Him before. I kept feeling that. And when I finally asked Him what it meant, I sensed something else, which was...well, too private to mention I guess. I'll take it with me and I'm very blessed I feel to have felt what I did.
When I'm ready eh? *grin*
Whatever you say God...so be it =)
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