2004 msgs from him - i need to clear my damn phone
i miss you and i think i am addicted to you
be strong my dear hugs
...good night.. even if i were upset doubt you would bother...
dunn let him bother you lah really i help you beat him up later bully my gf
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How things change eh? Now i'm the bloody sucker who's probably addicted to him. well maybe i never really showed that in the past. I did eventually do so. Lo and behold, I was greeted by sheere deafening silence - the kinda silence which objects commitment and violently screams "don't ever tell me that kinda shit because i'll run ten miles away from u". This is why I refrain from saying things like "i miss you" or even the dreaded three-phrase sentence which typically drives guys away.
I love you
Scary phrase eh? Guess I'm the sucker here and guess I'm destined to be single, alone and unhappy.
Anyway a couple more messages since I just wanna clear my damn phone (it's amazing i'm so sentimental i keep all these shit lovey dovy messages....i'm a fucking slut). I know it's a bit anti-climax but like do I give a flying fuck? ka nee nah... This were written in the first 1/2 a year in 2005:
Hey dear just wanted to say thanks for tonight was nice getting to spend time with you even though you didn't really wanted to club thanks have a good sleep k
Cant really remember haha was quite tired haha if i get baclled back for the second round it will be a mirable haha but as i was walking out i did hear one of them say wow he is good looking haha
so crude..oi sorry if i upset you lah dear... sigh sorry but just so you know you mean alot to me .wink.
I do care lor and i dont need to put in effort i enjoy being with you i had fun with you at the zoo the other day and i am pushing stuff aside to spend time with you on fri sat and next week for you just dont know thats all i do sacrifice but i dont think of it as that cos i have fun with you
you are not like someone i spend time with during free time you know i make time for you and enjoy it but there are times when priorities must be set wat like resting early today and stuff i would think you of all people as my girlfriend would understand this...
why must i look like it ok will look like it more will try my best but really i am not an extremely expressive physical person
if i have done anything in the past or lately that has hurt you or upset you or if my actions are not in tune with whats in my heart...i am sorry dear really sorry i will try harder and hopefullyi can make you more happy sorry if i have not spent enough time with you..will try harder as well dear
hey dear going to sleep now... hope you can get my msgs dunno if they are getting through...hmm anyway happy pre birthday dear
hmmm if you dunn wanna talk then can i at least call to wish my darling a happy birthday later?
guess you dunn wanna talk..just wanted to wish ya a happy birthday...know you dunn like to celebrate it but i still wanna wish my darling anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear hope ya have a good day..i just got home dear if ya dunn mind talkin let me know can call karen hp if ya want
haha tot you were not sleepy..have a nap on the plane then dear...have a safe flight dear
renzi screams again...
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