screamings from the heart
i love my life
but sometimes it can be unbearable, not to mention heartbreaking
this is my life and my other side...
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
12:33 AM
wierd
it feels wierd but...even though i was with my bunch of friends enjoyin myself, for some reason i couldn't help but think of him. not to mention fear that i would see him, or for some stupid crazy reason think that he would slip into some sort of crazy frightening rage. it's a whole mix of emotions, feelings (whatever you call it) all tossed into one rojak, AND this rojak tastes of a mix of...sweet, sour, salty flavours... wierd eh?
anyywayy there's still traces of blood in my stools *sigh* i hope i didn't get anything. i'm too young to dieeee...noooo...but seriously i'm a little afraid. i'll eat more 'cooling' stuff and monitor my condition i suppose. that's all i can do. i seriously DO NOT WANT TO STICK ANYTHING UP MY ARSE. =((( mum's (actually almost all the ppl around me) been nagging at me about my health...very tempted to just shove mum's words and ask her to worry more about her son but hmm shall not be rude, renzi shall not be rude...
oh well..time to sleep. been sleepin really early. I get very tired easily... guess it comes along with the package of working i suppose. i am sorta dreading the times when i have to entertain clients...
ulghh..my stomach...ulgh..my stools...ulgh......I WANNA EAT FRIED FOODDDDD but my colleagues are not allowing me to =(
this is just so random, but it's so me... =p i feel like shutting down my other renzi blog. i feel so...lazy and i can't be bothred. i mean, i see no point in highlighting to the world how dumb, bimbotic i am... hahaha... seriously i really wonder what those two silly idiots see in me. i am dumb...introverted...random...serious.... sigh...
i am dumb, i am losa
renzi screams again...
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what really goes on inside my head?
evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s
what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)
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