i'll pop some pills later
i'm obviously not goin to kill myself. even though i do complain about Life from time to time, that is not going to warrant myself to commit suicide. that's stupid, plain stupid. it's also irresponsible. i've mentioned this probably a million times. i know i'm guilty with regards to judging people but hmm i really despise people who give up on life itself, even to their graves.
okay, i'm getting a little angsty. anyway speaking of judging people, i'm meeting, or well i want to meet aik ming's girlfriend. not that i want to want to. but for meng's sake i think i should. every time he meets me, he gets shit from her. seriously i have no idea why she's so paranoid about me. for crying out loud, he liked me what, half a decade ago. that was at least 5 years and he's moved on. erm. i wouldn't say she's the best girl for him but he's still with her so i guess it says something? i've been alittle too harsh on her. for the whole time that he's been with her, i've NEVER ever been happy for him (one reason's because he always complains about her!) i keep telling him to break up with her. once again, i guess i've to say i'm quick to judge. it's a very bad habit. i guess only after kenneth's friends' and evelyn's cutting words did it dawn on me and show me how i was and maybe am still actually like that. i hate that aspect of myself. i really do.
i mean what right do i have to judge people like that? like me? hahaha i'm much worse than probably some poor people i've come across (and emotionally spat on them). who gave me the right and authority to? i've to work on myself, to be better. I've also gotta work on my relationship with God. once that's settled, everything will fall into place. i know that. i've been through that. =) well...slowly and steadily i will do it.
in the meantime, i should stop making curt comments about people.
i shouldn't be a bitch.
renzi screams again...
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