my dreams, my thoughts, my battles, my life

i love my life
but sometimes it can be unbearable, not to mention heartbreaking
this is my life and my other side...

Tuesday, February 28, 2006
7:01 PM

wow, two in a row

You fucking whore... you act like something you are not. You will never be me. Dumb bitch, go sit in the gutter where you belong. one more thing, thanks for taking him off my hands... i think you deserve each other. retribution has a way of working dear...

What's with labels and insults these days? Wow, two in a week. I want more! Seriously, just hit me all at one shot.

I mean i dunno why i'm affected but i am. I know my reputation is probably the worse of the worse but hey at least i don't open my mouth, or in this sense, use my fingers to do the talking. if you want to, come straight to me and opening your fucking mouth. i may not retaliate in words because well you hear what you want to hear, it's always the case. So what can i say? Words cut, they really do. Sometimes I think coming up with a string of words is more hurtful and painful than someone physically punching you.

Just for the record, (even though i know she doesn't read this blog) i don't want to be you. i NEVER wanted to be you. And i never intended to portray myself as whatever you thought i was. I'm too lazy to defend myself. I'm too tired. I can't be bothered so yeah. We'll leave it as that.

sigh..i want to rant...R-A-N-T.......i need a calling card, i wanna call kee, i wanna call trs! =(((

renzi screams again...

what really goes on inside my head?
evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s

what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)

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my loves also include...
ball games
kenneth
my friends
my privacy

i love my past
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my other side
Me

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