screamings from the heart
i love my life
but sometimes it can be unbearable, not to mention heartbreaking
this is my life and my other side...
Monday, February 20, 2006
4:49 AM
man!
the previous entry sounded so fragmented. =ppp sighhh...
anyway.. i am really tired. guess the swim really helped. i wanted to swim some more but my ankle hurt. damn it. it's gotta be some part of the body that refuses to cooperate. so well i stopped after 45 minutes. i wanted to swim for longer. will do that the next time round when i visit the pool.
guess i'm really glad for the two ex-classmates. they ate and drank with me. yeap...drank. but i don't think i drank that much. definitely not as much as the other day. but i guess that was probably influenced by cigarette smoke. speaking of drinking, in light of what's happening and that being really tough, i will also adopt a healthy lifestyle. that means i wouldn't be drinking (alcohol). also i wouldn't be consuming caffeine, chocolates and sweets. that would be friggin tough but hey this torture is nothing compared to the other.
i feel like i'm fighting a losing battle. whichever or whatever i decide on, i lose something. like what ken mentioned a loong time ago, i can't have everything. i suppose. but i always struggle and try to get what i want. guess that's why in this case, i am still fighting a losing battle. i never win. i never will.
tomorrow is a new beginning. i shall run in the morning. hopefully i don't puke after the run. i will try to push myself. hopefully i don't bust my knees. i'll meet ah kor after that. i can't wait, really.
renzi screams again...
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what really goes on inside my head?
evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s
what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)
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