the more i write...the more i filter
i know a couple more ppl who read this blog. thats prob why i feel that i'm gradually filterin what i'm saying. i don't want to do it but guess that happens indirectly and subconsciously too.
i'm so glad for my other blog - the really personal one.
alvin said i was damn jialat to meet the two boys in one day. shucks. the longer i drag this further, the longer and the deeper i get myself into.
maybe i really should jus not see them for a while. maybe after chinese new year. i don't know about them, but i think i've hurt them enough. this has indeed dragged on for longer than i expected.
one says he'll perservere. one didn't show any sign.
one is very warm; the other, cold.
one keeps creating opportunities to meet me; the other is wavering.
sigh
shit, i lost my train of thought. damn it. i think i'm physically drained than anyhthing else. sigh.
renzi screams again...
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