i need to start deleting messages from my phone...
these messages are in order from the most recent to oldest (WARNING:long and painful and a seemingly self-pitying entry on my part)
eh on a more serious note k if you are going to kl and kosa mui be careful heard there was a bomb threat from my coach
sweet boy..sigh..stop being a sweet boy...pls
tell me lah dunn think i can sleep peacefully without knowing. pls
sigh...i need to see you to tell u...i would rather lah...
hmm you ok? sorry if i caused you pain or anything...i didn't want to do that but i cant help it also
dun tink u did. i still tink i caused you more pain than anything else...i'm a POS...piece of shit...piece of shit...
if i had cheated wld it make you feel less bad for being what you call a lousy gf which by the way i dont tink you were?
who are you kidding? i'm like the lousiest gf on earth. u said tat before damn it. get over this POS man...seriously for your own good look for someone better. if u like me that much, do that. for me
hmmm do want me to back off? i will if you want that...
sigh..yes..for your own sake. i want you to. i'll be fucking jealous if u get together with another gal but hey i'll be happy for you and hopefully we can still be good friends. truthfully think you are one of the few who knows me very well, in fact the best. sigh...
you said he does not know. hmm well if you wanna get attached to him...nothing i have to say but really dunn do that to make me get over you...and well give me a chance if you want...and i tink you more than good enough for me
...nooooooooo...POS POS POS POS POS POS POS POS.... me that is.... i'd rather you look for a gal so i can get over you...
sigh did you lie to me about him not knowing that we broke up. or did well he just get together with you despite knowing you are attached. cos either way pls be careful bouthim k cos honestly i do have a bad feelin bout him and even though we are thru would really hate for you to get hurt.
sighh...stop being so nice...stop...
at least give me a chance before you get attached to him. or is it too late already? sigh...
does it make a diff now? you deserve better. seriously argghh...
dunno. are you? i guess so but are you? i dunn wanna give up but i don't wanna steal other peoples girls. are you? sigh
that's the beauty of you...your charm.... sigh...anyway i'm not but didnt we agree already? once it's a break, it's a break? sigh
hmmm why dunn you make me happy then...go out with me sometimes hang out with me for coffee or go for a walk let me see if there is anything there haha...
we're supposed to be getting over each other...not rekindling feelings, or worse loving each other more...arggggggggggggggggggggggghh...go look for another better gal damn it.
i have never thought of you as a piece of trash,....and even if you were i guess i wld still like you...i mean well sigh i can't help it...i am how i am.
pos pos pos pos pos renzi_is_a_pos@killme.com
have you liked him. like how ago while we were together? hmm honestly i am kinda resigned to losing you but well doesn't mean i have to be happy about it nor will i go down without trying i guess but well sigh i dunno also lah i know how you feel cos i am as confused as you sometimes. sigh.
ok...let me make the decision for you silly boy, get another gal. (just tell me when you do, makes things all the more easier for me)
why tell me why? are you afraid of going out with me? hmm just wanna ask you. have you told me everything bout you and him?
from what i remember, yes.
basically i just wanna see if there is anything left before well we cross the point of no return ie you or i get together with someone else cos well i will never cheat on someone or be the someone that steals someone else's girl cos well it sucks...
that's what's so wonderful about u...sigh...i'm a piece of shite and u're like the complete opposite..so go find that girl who's perfect for you.
why if there is something there then well sholdn't we see if its something worth saving? if its not then well yeah but well i dunno i know i really wanna see ya....hmm and you think i wld be better off with someone else you never spared a thought for what i tink. i was happy then..now i dunno.
sigh.....dun do this to me...i'm a POS
anyway i really do understand that i think we have no more chance at reconcilliation and well wanna say that well if i am what is stopping you from being happy cos you dont wanna upset me then dont let me be that. but if there are still feelings then before you well get together with him maybe you shd give me a chance to see if there is anything left there. basically if there is a chance give me a chance. thats bt i wanted to say wont disturb you anymore.
i can't get together with you whether or not i'm single or attached to whoever. i can't...remember? i'm a pos!
ARGH kill me someone. i'm such a bitch...
renzi screams again...
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