my dreams, my thoughts, my battles, my life

Saturday, November 05, 2005
10:22 PM

yeah yeah

this friend keeps asking me about some notes, well, let me rephrase, FOR notes for another friend. firstly, you can ask for my notes but ask ME. don't ask someone else to do the dirty deed for you. i think it's insincere and irresponsible for you to even do that, much more for notes. sheesh. if you haven't been for classes or taken notes for the lecture because u're lazy, why should i help you. i dun give a two hoots whether u're friggin rich. i'll be that some day. =)

secondly, beg me. i love people to implore. yes i'm a sick selfish bitch, bite me. okay..tat sounds damn bad but once again, do i give?

if tat's not blatant enough for you, the answer is no.

i've been working my arse off for these two subjects, worrying sick for these two, last two subjects and you're asking me what quesitons will be asked. wah laoo...if i noe would i still even be studying, wait, i wouldn't even be working! i'd be some genius! whooo! seriously. how stupid can your questions get?? sheesh. and come up with well constructive questions, not wat will come out for the friggin papers!

i really have no idea why i'm so worked up and why i'm finding reasons to justify my actions. okay...from the attribution theory that i came across, it's because i try to explain causes to events. oh well...

i'm jus prob...1) tired from studying. tat's prob why i came online. glad to see some ppl online 2) pissed that here i am studying so damn hard i might add and someone else is playing her arse off, AND asking me what will be coming out.....it's almost equivalent to ppl not goin for lectures and asking for lecture notes from others in wk13. it's so unjustified. i've been in the shoes of that particular 'friend' aw come on, everyone skips lectures once in a while, well for my case, esp in first year it wasn't just a once in a bluemoon event, but yeah...i've been through that phase, i've been through that stage where i find a million and one excuses to not attend classes but now i've changed and i feel bad for no t going for lessons . (this is in the past so...well i FELT bad...). yeahhh... i'm jus goin round and round. i can't even be bothred to edit what i'm writing. i'm rambling. but i dun even AASKKK ppl for notessss..tat's the diff.....

since i'm jus rambling...i might as well do it some more....(shit shit...i need ot study)... well... i know i'm different in some aspects. i'm not like normal gals. i'm not chatty. i dun like talking. let's face it renee, you're lazy. Hell yeah, i'm lazy. i'm lazy to talk, lazy to socialise. i'm so damn sick of making small talk over and over again. i'm so sick of life sometimes. but the show must go on yeah? sigh...why can't i be bothered. i noe some may argue that if i blog about it i'm bothered. i dunno lah..........................=(((

wu zhen de bu zhi dao....i'm just a confused child. sniffles.

renzi screams again...