my dreams, my thoughts, my battles, my life

i love my life
but sometimes it can be unbearable, not to mention heartbreaking
this is my life and my other side...

Thursday, September 29, 2005
10:54 AM

missing another...

thinking about the dream led me to thinking about wee which led me to think about workin back home, specifically well starbucks.

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hmm in some ways, hopefully not warped, i'm glad that i broke up with u. it's through the determination to distract myself that i got so involved in working at starbucks (i mean although i could have gone somewhere else to work. ai! eitherways, i still worked so no complaints there). i met so many cool peeps there, learnt quite a bit, became in some ways more street smart than most of my peers and got to know another person.

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i'm so lucky to have met you, to have been embraced by your warmth and love. you were probably one of the nicest guys (hopefully with no ulterior motive) i've met. even though u outwardly showed your distaste for many people, and i was prob the opposite from you (being nice and politically correct all the time), i still admire you for who u are. you weren't afriad to be who u are, full knowing of the consequences ahead. maybe tat's what's bad about u. either ways, you were still nice to me, so tat is good =) hahahah

thank you for being a friend, and well a person whom i can talk to, relate to, and be stupid with. i really hope that we can continue being friends. i'll be praying and will continue to pray that you'll talk to me sometime. i really miss u.

renzi screams again...

what really goes on inside my head?
evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s

what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)

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my loves also include...
ball games
kenneth
my friends
my privacy

i love my past
August 2004 l September 2004 l October 2004 l November 2004 l December 2004 l January 2005 l March 2005 l April 2005 l May 2005 l June 2005 l July 2005 l August 2005 l September 2005 l October 2005 l November 2005 l December 2005 l January 2006 l February 2006 l March 2006 l April 2006 l May 2006 l June 2006 l July 2006 l August 2006 l October 2006 l November 2006 l December 2006 l January 2007 l

my other side
Me

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