i was supposed to be on some detox programme recommended by joe. however because of various reasons i gave up (and was even deemed as a quitter by ken boy).

after days of winging, whining and complaining to certain friends, i finally satisfied my craving for kl hokkien mee at wah kee. for a moment after devouring the piping hot plate of noodles, one question came up "so what now? what next?"

that question, or those questions hint at confusion and a lack of direction. it also pointed at one thing that we humans always do- we look forward to this certain thing/day/person but when the time comes, when we are brought to what we want, when it is right in front of us, we are happy at this instant but it is soon taken over by another emotion/feeling and that is dissatisfaction, AGAIN.

feelings and questions like "so how? what do i do now?" come to mind. in some ways dissonance comes into play. my question for today is, should we plan what to do next AFTER we look forward to something, or should we just let "nature take its course", or for some who are godly "let go and let God"?

are we destined to be like this all our lives? if so. isn't tat a little bit saddening? all our lives, our excitement is being replaced by a sense of dissatisfaction, which would sooner or later be replaced AGAIn by excitement. (a vicious cycle i reckon).

destiny. destined. that's another thing or issue that should be spoken and discussed. well till next time.

i'm a dissatisfied gal and i'm outta here!