screamings from the heart
i love my life
but sometimes it can be unbearable, not to mention heartbreaking
this is my life and my other side...
Monday, August 15, 2005
6:11 PM
sniff
well i came across this entry by bev about the wedding and she happened to mention that "well, jon took me around to meet all his relatives.. everything felt so official.. lol" sighh...
on the wedding itself ken did tell me tat he wanted to bring me around to intorduce me to his relatives and at tat point in time i was both shit scared and happy. guess wat? we didn't do it in the end.
i really have no idea why i'm fussing about this.
it could be because we've been together for like wat close to 3 years and well until only recently his parents kinda knew tat we were together. nothing was "official" (i would say). hmm maybe it's jus my expectations but hmm shouldn't there be at least some sort of recognition? or am i asking for too much?
somehow i feel like i've been left hanging for years. i'm at this stage where i still dunno where we're headed to. like is this some sorta long-term relationship that is not that long-term. i dunno how to put it to words. oh well....
oh well...sometimes i wonder, but oh welll really oh well *sigh* i guess i've to resign in my frustration. even frustration is not the word. it's not that bad but still....a girlfriend would want recognition of some sort.
ahhh the beauty of gals eh?
renzi screams again...
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evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s
what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)
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