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Friday, August 05, 2005
1:52 PM

like wtf?

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
wat's winson doing man?????? i'm feeling very distressed

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
as long as he doesn't do it too often

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
i dun see why ppl do such things...to hurt themselves.....some argue that it's to make them feel better?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
well, remember zach's quote about pain? hehe..

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
pray thee...tell mee

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
and ray lewis once said "pain is only weakness leaving your body.."
oh, the one that sac has goes something like "pain is ur ally, ur fren...yada yada (can't remember a chunk here)...but the best thing about pain is that it tells u that u're still alice

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
no pain no gain?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
*alive
Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
from the cam, u looked really thin...

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
i noe that i'm alive. i dun need pain to remind me about that. the fact that i'm living already, waking up everyday reveals alot more things other than being alive =p well so wat does it also mean by publicly showing that u're hurting urself? u're merely jus wanting sympathy. hmmm sigh..cynical view ?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
for someone who hurts themselves, sympathy is the last thing they want bcos they are selfishly thinking about themselves...no?

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
well i beg to differ. i have this conception that they subconsciously want to sympathy in some form/manner. why would they publicly show that they are hurting themselves otherwise?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
well, u said it: subconscious doing the talking...but they feel a sense of "relief" having actually feel something that is real (pain) rather than just frustration or the "emotion" that's making them sad...u know wat i'm trying to say?

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
hmm sigh oh well....
renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
isn't this under the umbrella of like attempting suicide?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
exactly...it can be very taxing to feel sad etc, and can't cry over it or basically disrupting one's daily life...so, they rather feel the pain physically...suicide is when all else fails...so, as long as he doesn't do it too often, i think suicide will NOT cross his mind...i'm sure of that..

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
hmmm i mean he's hurting himself right now and attempting suicide in some warped way hurting urself also no?

Eek, whô lôôks fôrward tô MCF & MMN says:
yes, but suicide ends one's life...i'm sure he is smart enough to NOT be THAT selfish...

renzi_is_lyin down>>>MMN 2005 @ Park Hyatt on the 19th Aug (Friday evening) says:
hmmm i guess... yeah... it is.

renzi screams again...