my dreams, my thoughts, my battles, my life

Thursday, August 11, 2005
10:14 PM

isn't it ironic...

hahha jus thought of her song "ironic". i quite like that song. i'm not too sure why either. it's prob because it's true in some sense. well in other words, what our dear angsty alanis wants to put across is that SHIT HAPPENS> hahhaha

this is yet another blog entry prob filled with ramblings. i was just telling kenneth that i shouldn't read anyone else's blog anymore. it makes me depressed sometimes. well not depressed depressed per se but yeah makes me think. (and i tink, another tink hur hur, that i tink to much. i'm sure ken boy can vouch to that)

thinking is bad sometimes. at times i just want to shut down my brain, just like how we would usually click on the start button and shut down or restart our computer. that's easy. but wow the human anatomy, the human brain...humans in general, boy...they blow me away! i jus wish there's this device that we can use to well jus cut up bits and pieces that we don't want to remember. yeah it's some sort of escapism and it's prob going to be deemed as a cowardly sin but hey! we're cowards in our own fashion. i dun believe that anyone can be so brave ALL THE TIME. screw rashness! oh well... i tink i've kind of deviated! =p

speaking of this device and the ability to erase some memories off our brain. if it's allowed...
1) should it be argued on an ethical lvel?
2) should we allow ourselves to do so? to wipe up certain portions of sadness, sorrow, bitterness, angst? or should we let ourselves have such emotions and memories to firstly remind us that we're human, or secondly allow us in some minor way to shape who we are? i mean after all, ur history defines you.

i'm a sucker for pain, and if really this is being introduced, as much as i would admit i would be very tempted, i would probably jus let it be. i mean my history has made me who i am, and the fact of the matter is what really is important is the future, not the past. yes things may have happened, but i believe everything happens for a reason. you live you learn (ahh another one of her songs...i love alanis)

enough said for today... end notes to ice this 'cake'-of-the-day: exercise is good for u..it makes u happy. =) i'm a happy gal...for now. dum dee dum...

renzi screams again...

what really goes on inside my head?
evil thoughts
sad memories
plots
the "how-to"s
the "what-if"s

what i want to accomplish before i die
buy my own ring
earn at least 10K before i turn 30
support the family
bungee jump and survive
sky dive with someone i love
drop to at least a 47kg
say "i love you" to someone with conviction
reach,according to alvina, sexual peak...HAHAHA
say "i love you" to my parents
go to europe and backpack with someone
plan someone's wedding
make someone's day everyday
perform in at least one musical/play
open my own business (either pecking duck OR bakery)

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