for the first time she speaks
well after a long while i guess she couldn't take it. she waited for me to come home and confronted me.
i'm so glad i wasn't drunk or not in a state to look at her in the eye.
it broke my heart to see the hurt in her red eyes but i really couldn't bring myself to tell her anything when she pushed me for answers, for why i treat my family with resentment, for why i dislike staying at home, for just 'hate' as she puts it.
how am i supposed to tell her? what am i supposed to say? was it a bad move to jus keep quiet. i've always been. i've always been...
i've been secretive but hey i've let you in on secrets and you put me down by just a laugh. tat was important to me then.
i've introduced ken to the family but u treat him like you already diun like him. so wat am i supposed to do? subject him to more torturous silent moments from the family?
i've already expressed some of my resentment in my email a while back but you responded as though as you read everything differently, your interpretation was so shockingly differnt.
i've tried and i dunno whther i should try again. maybe patience pays off. however at this point of time, i really need to be by myself....
maybe i should jus break up with ken too eh?
(since i'm so screwed up)
renzi screams again...
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