some thoughts
it always happens, after the dismiss of a person, be it dear or not, you reflect about life, about how life is so fragile, about everything that sometimes one chucks in the closet till it collects dust.
kangfei passed away. he was still so young! he was my age! i'd like to ask God when i see him. i wanna ask why... why do some people live till a ripe old age, while others die with a lifetime ahead of them.
i teared yesterday. i didn't know how to cope with another death. i mean he wasn't close to me. all i could remember about fei was that he danced with me during orientation, he was one of my first friends in JC and i always said hi to him in acjc.
sigh...he's too young. he's too young to contract a disease, he's too young to be greeted by the reaper.
it really slaps you in the face that, as cliche as it may sound, life is so unpredictable. it reminded me of late mrs tan's very famous advice to us as kids, when we were in our early teens. she told us to tell our parents/loved ones of how and why we should say "i love you" to them. i remember she almost choked when she said that because she didn't have the opportunity to say that to her mum. she would also have noticed that at that point in them we woulnd't understand at least 1/2 of wat she said but i think she prob assured herself that she at least planted a seed of thought that when we grew older we would learn and realise.
i pray that fei's parents, family members and friends would be comforted in this time. sigh..that's all i can do now.
sigh..life is just so fragile and short for us to involve ourselves in the pettiness and cares of the world.
i will try to make an effort to tell my parents and friends how much i love them, not IF i have the time or whether i feel like it. i need to...
God make me an instrument for you
quote of the day by kangfei (in friendster) "If I have not impacted your life, my job on earth is not finished yet.."
renzi screams again...
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