love is a double-edged sword
Well hahha I came across this song and I love it. Guess some parts of the song applies to one person in my life right now. My gosh I can’t believe I just wrote that, sounds too cliché for me. but it’s true I guess. I really really can’t believe he’s my guy. I’m really glad for having this understanding boy as my boyfriend for 1 year, 11 mths ++. Although sometimes I just feel like wringing him by the neck, I’m glad we’re still together. Despite whatever that has happened, he’s still with me.
It’s scary when people say that once you reach the 2 year, 3-year, 5 and 7-year mark, there’s something to be wary. We’re going to be together for 2 years in less than a month! I’m scared, I really am.
Some part of me knows for some reason that there may always be a possibility that a couple may break up. So what does that mean, that we should make the best out of it and love him/her unconditionally? We should love him/her wholeheartedly and not be distracted by whoever/whatever? then there's this nagging thought that questions his love, faith,...what if he's loving me for the wrong reasons? what if he's jus in "like" with me because i jus happen to be there? what heppens if you invest so much into a relationship and end up being hurt by the one whom you've loved and cherished?
Or does it work the very opposite way? Should one be selfish to just receive and not give his/her all? Should we give ourselves excuses not to live and love? isn't it a waste when one day you look back and realise that he was actually perfect for you, in your eyes. wouldn't tht be too late?
I’m beginning to well love him even more but some part of me is just too scared to devote my feeling 100%, does that mean that I shouldn’t be in this relationship? I’m even scared to mention or tell him that, that I do actually love him.
so isit possible to love a person fully and yet...be shielded from hurt and heart ache?
Dunno where this entry leads to…jus ramblings of renee again…
renzi screams again...
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